Words by Verna

2004

In search of an alternative method of treatment to help our son, Erick Mendeloff, who was diagnosed with Bipolar 1, Schizophrenia; having illusional and dilusional experiences because he complained that there were these people talking to him in his head and they wanted him to commit suicide. On the other hand, I had reasons to believe that Erick was having a horrible psychic experience, and that these people who were terrorizing him in his head did exist. The members of the American medical and psychiatric association happened to be way off base in their diagnosing our son Erick C. Mendeloff. Erick felt the same way, that he was being drugged for something that was not happening; he was not mentally ill, he was having a psychic experience. But to my horrible surprise, no one in the medical society seemed to be listening to either Erick nor myself. They did what they wanted to in choosing a treatment for my son. This situation eventually worsened and led up to Erick’s suicide death.

During the four and a half months before his suicide, I searched for a way to stop these voices and thoughts that were being transmitted to Erick’s head. First I would have to learn everything I possibly could about the brain and its parts.

My intent was to find the place in the brain where the emotions were located; to find how these voices were being transmitted to my son’s mind; and then to find an alternative way to treat all of these problems and finally to find a way to stop these messages from reaching my son’s mind and find the people who were in process of taking my child away from us. After Erick left my intentions were to find him and bring him and the other children he said were with him in this place where he and they were taken too after they were removed from this world by accidents, kidnappings, disappearances, suicide, murder, school shootings, police shootings, Aids and other strange viruses etc. In my search I would find that mental disease labels schizophrenia, Suicide, Accidental death, physical diseases, death, the past, the present, the future, are all these different levels of Consciousness that is being experienced within the for components of the brain. These different states of consciousness have many names all relating to the brain and human consciousness-thought. These different states of consciousness are called alpha, beta, theta and delta waves. Also known as the Reptile brain, the Mammal brain, The Primate Brain/Frontal lobes and the Amygdala the click switch or fly back switch that allows you to go in and out of these different parts of your thinking brain which are also named subconscious mind, the instinctual mind, the reasoning mind and the superconscious Mind of the individual.

2014

Just so no one thinks that I just fell out of the sky and decided to pick on The Federal Government and their reserve system holding them responsible for a number of horrific things that happened in my life between the American Medical and Psychiatric Association and The Federal Reserve banking system first of all I let me be very clear here on how I got here.

I have been getting my “butt” kicked by people in the Federal Government for some time Now. I would realize how bad back it was back in 1977 with the c-section birth of my son where I was given Pitosin without my consent and remained in labor that entire day Labor Day 1977 and all for a baby that barely weighed five pounds.

Not only did I have the most memorable painful experience I could have ever imagined but I was told that I died along with my baby for eight minutes plus. As a matter of fact they said that they had lost me and the baby for eight minutes plus. They even went as far to tell me that he was a blue baby. They went further and told me that I had to be given and EKG and and EEG to test if I had been damage brain wise something that I fought against intensely where I told them that they better not do that to my new born. To my surprise I was told that they already did the test on him where I flipped a lid and a half. You had no right I said neither I nor his father gave you permission, you never asked.

From that day onward I would realize that someone decided that I had no rights to anything not even my new born. I was pissed and as I struggled not to take the test I was told that I would not be discharged unless I did. I am not good at doing anything especially by force which I believe is not good for me and so I called out for help from a family member who is a well know doctor here in New York City.

After telling her what had happened she told me to go along with the test that it would not hurt me just so that I could be released from the hospital and then come see her.

The bigger picture was this about a week plus some days before I had a sonogram done and found out that I was having twins. I was also taking Lamaze classes because I was preparing to have natural child birth. It was the Lamaze teacher who said that we all should go and have this Sonogram. At that time I was surprised that she would suggest such a thing being that she was all about Natural child birth.

My thing was to have my baby delivered the way that I saw and knew all babies in my neighborhood were delivered which was by a midwife. I was born on the Island of Trinidad in the West Indies.

Well after all was said and done and I left the hospital with one baby one of the first persons that I called was the midwife -teacher of the Lamaze class and told her about what had happened and she said to me “Oh well since you were having twins you were not going to be able to have natural child birth” but you never said anything concerning twins and you never came to see me at the hospital.

It does not take much to make me suspicious of anyone or anything especially where there is pain or suffering. I was done with this woman and my gynecologist as well forever. Most important I was going to find out exactly what happened and how did I end up in this atrocity.

That August right here in New York City there was a black out in the entire east Coast. Apparently the hospital that I was in had a problem as well from this blackout. The day I was told to enter this hospital I was in for the ride of my life. After putting me on Pitosin although I pleaded with them that I had just entered my third trimester and it was not time for the baby to come I was totally and completely ignored, they just went ahead and injected this drug into me whether I liked it or not. And so for twenty something hours and more they tried to induce labor while I was balling all the while, I want out of here Now.

After the twenty something hours they finally decided to do a c-section and prepared me for such.

During the preparation a man appeared over me and said that he was the anesthesiologist and blah blah blah. The next thing I knew was that he gave me this anesthesia through the intervenes needle that I was connected too and then all hell broke loose. A soon as he administered the drug I began to feel that I was having problems breathing. I actually felt as though there was a weight on my chest and I could not breath. I began to call out for help from the doctors and nurses who were washing up and putting their operating outfits on. The problem was that they were all busy chatting and no one heard me and so I decided that I was not going to die here and began to get up from the operating bed. The problem I was having was I was attached to all these things including a device that was stuck up in me monitoring the baby. Well like I said I was not about to die that day and I pulled my arm and legs as hard as I could in order to disconnect from these things and as I did so I felt the bed beneath me open and my feet hit the floor and As I went to get up they all saw me then and came over in a rush calling my name. I blacked out right then and I wake up later on sometime having no idea of the time or what had transpired I woke up in this dimly lit room.

I got out of the bed and headed for the door where the light was coming from. As I got to the door a woman a nurse I supposed came running to me asking what was I doing? You can not be walking or be out of bet, you just had surgery please lets get back in to the bed. I looked down at my stomach and asked here where is my baby and she said that he was fine and in the nursery. Honestly I had no idea that I was operated on or that my baby was taken out via c-section. I did go back in the bed and later found my self in a room with many other women who also had babies.

Anyway the day I left the hospital which happened to be New York Infirmary I remember saying to the nurses and doctors that I will be back if anything that happened here in this hospital that would reflect or hurt my child in any form or fashion. Basically I left with major doubt and many questions especially one question which was why did my son have a wound, a bump and an mark on the top of his head which is considered his soft spot. The place where it beats along with the heart beat. The other question was why did I have trouble breathing after anesthesia was administered why was I not given oxygen. They had problems with the oxygen tanks in the wall due to the black out that had occurred days before.

Apparently that was story that was supposed to be a secret from me what I was to believe was that I was having convulsions which was very far from the truth. I had every intentions of finding out the truth about why I died on and operating table along with my son and what happened to his twin. Today will be thirty four years that I have been on the case. I have never been able to forget this incident especially since what happened to my son later on in his life. I do not play any kind of game involving my children and their lives especially when it involves their rights to Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness which is something that the Government organization calling itself The United States of America seems to have forgotten. Something that their Uniform commercial code does not include. Something that was not included when President Truman and the Truman Doctrine did not care to include. This is how I got here intending to protect my children in turn protecting all children and their mothers and fathers.